So hurt. So fragile. So delicate.

So angry. So furious. So fucking mad!

Suicide.

everyone is having relationship problems.. Or is it just mine? Either way I’m confused and extremely sad. Yes, I know I’ll live, but how am I suppose to go on with the rest of my day.. tomorrow.. next week, month, year? I’m usually a happy person on the outside -but with tons of anger and frustration bottled inside. Is this me letting it out? No. Will I ever let it out? Probably not.

Things just never go smoothly or at least the way I want it to. But no one said that life was easy. Yet loving him was easy.. I kept my guards up but he easily brought it down, without even trying. How does someone do that to a girl whose been hurt so badly in the past? I don’t know. I guess I’ll never know unless I ask him. And I’m not sure if I want to ask him. Because I’m not sure if he’ll even talk to me. I’m not sure where we even stand. I’m not sure if this is temporary or not. I’m not even sure how the fuck you feel about me.

Pushing someone away is pushing them into someone else’s arms. You think about that. I’m not the type to go out and do reckless things when I’m let go, so don’t think that’s what I’m doing. You should worry about what I’m not doing, like eating, sleeping, homework, how’s my health, my mind, my body, my heart.

I think it’s just mine.

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→ 24 Jun 12 at 11 pm

end of joone.

sunday: work open to close. time and a half? cha-ching!

monday: work until 3. guitar center and dinner with bubba and his cousin at olive garden, yay for umlimited bread and salad :)

tuesday: maybe a little laundry in the morning? then work 4 to close.

wednesday: day off! hopefully lake or beach with the best people in my life *crosses fingers*

thursday: another day off! hopefully hang with my other favorite mChum <3

friday: sleep innnnnnn until work 2 to close :(

saturday: work until 3 then relax biotchessss

→ 21 Jun 12 at 10 pm

straight up mother fucking bullshit.